I made it through my Nursing 150 class and second semester of nursing school and passed by GOD'S GRACE ALONE. I am so excited for the break and am taking Microbiology over the summer which I am enjoying so far.
However, the weather seems to have missed the memo that its time to bring on the summer and as a result it is May with April shower and March temperatures. :( I find this to be very irritating. However, I know God controls the weather, so hopefully He will send us some sunshine soon!
I suppose I wouldn't be so discontent with the weather if I had not spent a week in Hondurus visiting my older sister, as the weather there was PERFECT.
The visit was amazing and I had such a wonderful time that to tell the truth I wasn't ready to come home and would have been happy to stay another 3 or 4 weeks. However, responsibility prevented that from being an option and I returned to work and school the following week.
I feel like in my walk with God, that I am moving very slowly lately. I know that is in a large part my own fault. I desire to follow Him with my whole heart, but then I make an excuse to do something else instead of spending time with Him. So I guess it really is a heart issue and my prayer for the past few weeks is that God will change my heart and make me really desire that time with Him. In the meantime, I am trying to climb a huge mountain so that I can get out of this valley. In case I have never mentioned it before I think of my walk with the Lord as being a journey through some rough terrain, there are mountaintop moments where I feel close to God, and walking down the mountain which is easy, and there are valleys where I feel like I am getting nowhere and God seems far away, and most recently I have been experiencing the walking back up the mountain part, which involves gritting your teeth and pressing forward against great resistance. The resistance in this case being my flesh.
I have also been thinking about something that a friend said after hearing a sermon on easter sunday in spanish. She was explaining the sermon to me since I had understood absolutely NONE of it. lol. and she talked about seeking the Lord, searching for Jesus, and how when we do that, we aren't afraid.
Anyways, I think the biggest thing on my heart has been the verse about Seeking the Lord with your whole heart, I have really been thinking about that lately and just how to do that and why I don't do that etc.
So cool story. I was flying from Atlanta home and was seated next to a woman. Well when the lights went out as we took off and it was dark outside, I couldn't really continue reading my book, so we began to talk. About halfway through the flight I bolstered my courage and prayed for God's strength, then asked if she was a christian. AND SHE WAS. I was amazed and for the next 45 minutes I was being encouraged by her testimony. God is so good. She talked about how the words of the Lord can't flow out of us if we don't constantly place them in us by reading His word. She talked about how our spirituality is pointless if it doesn't change our reality. She spoke of how God's plan is so much bigger than our and how she had never expected to be where she is now and it was in no way what she had imagined for her life. Yet she knew God was in control and was content with where He had placed her. She also spoke of her witness to others and how people at her work know if something's up that they can come to her and she'll pray for them, right then, not later but pray WITH them. Anyways I was just REALLY encouraged by her and her words and it is amazing to me how God places people in our lives like that and if we just listen to the spirit's beckoning how we can be changed.
Kinda on the same vein, I have just been really being stretched to draw nearer to the Lord and not just stay where I am and do the same things. So I have been asking myself what I need to do to seek the Lord with my whole heart. And then God reminded me that first I have to get rid of what is keeping me from doing that. So I have been examining what seems to distract me, and how I can better surround myself with the truth of the Lord, whether in my car, my room, and my heart, I want to so fully immerse myself in the Lord that I don't become distracted. That;s my thinking anyways.
Well I am beginning to ramble. I would just like to ask that you (if anyone is reading this) pray for me, that God would just bring back my desire for His word so that the climb up the mountain wouldn't be so tedious, and that I would lean on His strength, because I am so prone to hold myself back (instead of being vulnerable) and try to do it on my own. Also if you would pray for those around me at my work and school who are so lost that God would just reach out to them and bring them to the knowledge of His Son, and that I would be a true testimony of who God is.
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