So I haven't written in a while. Things have been...hectic, insane, stressful, etc. I think the warm weather is finally almost here and I am so thankful. Sunshine just makes my smile come back out. I am almost through this semester of Nursing school by some miracle. Its been a rough ride and keeping the faith hasn't been easy. I feel like the waves are crashing down on me, trying to drown me and I am clinging to the life jacket Jesus has thrown to me, but I can't see the boat, the rain and wind and darkness blind my eyes, so I just cling to the life jacket in faith that the boat is still there. I don't know where that analogy came from, but it describes how I have been feeling. God has shown me this semester, how far I have to go, and yet that no matter how bad the storm, I can trust He is there. He has also shown me how when I don't make Him the focus and spend time with Him, I make it much harder on myself. I want to make a difference, but I don't know how.
I definitely feel those verses 2 Corinth 4:8 "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed."
But I can't forget the rest of the passage, "We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11 For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you. It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.”[a] With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, 14 because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. 15 All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.
:)16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
So as I finish the next 6 weeks of this semester I just need to remember that God is my strength and He will guide me to light at the end of the tunnel. So i will continue to hold tight to His hand each and every day and follow Him, and not forget to spend time just sitting at His feet.
"Sorrow may last for the night, but Joy comes in the morning"
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me"
May you all walk in Him wherever in life that you are. I am beginning to see that walking the narrow path is all about clinging to Him and letting Him lead me, cause the twists and turns confuse me and on my own I stumble, but His word is the light to my path, and His hand is my guide.
God Bless.
