I can honestly say every night has been different, some have been harder than others, but every night I learn something new.
I love my job. I love that I get the opportunity to extend God's love and compassion to people when they are sick. I hope that doesn't change through the years, I know it's easy to become tough-skinned to people, but I want to also empathize and love people, I don't want to be a harsh and judgmental nurse.
My prayer is that God will give me hands filled with His love and healing.
My job is both amazing and absolutely terrifying, the knowledge that I have people's lives in my hands is very scary, but God is in control, and I have to trust He will give me wisdom each night.
I ask LOTS of questions, and I mean LOTS! I sometimes feel like I ask too many questions when I should feel more confident in my judgement and critical thinking, but I know that will develop with time, and I'd rather double check than take the risk when I am not sure about something.
The nurses on my floor have been awesome about helping and giving me advice for difficult situations.
I know many struggles are ahead, I know that some nights I may be discouraged or frustrated or not love my job- I am trying to prepare myself for that. But good or bad, God is Sovereign.
The verse I have been really pondering of late is from Acts: "I can do all things through Christ Who strengthens me" -That verse is powerful. God is my strength, and I can rest knowing He will give me the strength I need.
That's something that I feel like He has been teaching me this year so far a lot. It's been hard working nights to find time every day for my time in the Bible and in prayer, but God has been showing me what it means to rely on Him. It's amazing that I have learned that before, and yet I am re-learning it in a whole new way. I am so weak, but God is all-powerful, and all I have to do, is ask Him to intercede for me, to be my strength, such a simple thing, and yet in my pride, I am so prone to trying in my own strength- even when I know it leads to failure. How stubborn and proud I am in my flesh.
God is showing me daily that I need Him, and that all I have to do is ask for help, He is all I need, He fulfills.
Song I heard tonight that I loved: All things possible by Mark Schultz
I will call on Your name /For there’s always a way /When You lead me /And when life knocks me down /I am not counted out /For You’re with me /And You’re with me
Even when it feels like the light is fading /And I’ve lost my way /Still I’m holding on to the One who’s making /All things possible
Even when it feels like my heart is breaking /Hold on, there is strength /Knowing I belong to the One who’s making /All things possible
I know mountains can move /I’ve seen what You can do /In my weakness /So my heart will believe /If I wait I will see /My God doing, what only He can do
*My God is strong and mighty /My God is faithful /My hope is in the Lord /For He is able*
-Praise the LORD for He is able!!!
God bless you all!
