I know, I haven't posted in forever. So sorry about that.
Anyways, update: I start my last year of nursing school TUESDAY! crazy crazy! I am excited/nervous. Excited about the new information and experiences, but dreading the tests. Needless to say I have been cleaning and organizing as I prepare for school and enjoying my last few days of freedom before I lay my social life onto the alter of nursing school one last time.
Spiritual update: God has been opening my eyes in a lot of ways this summer. Two of the biggest things I think have been anger and trusting His Will.
1. Anger. He has really opened my eyes to the anger that I let take root in my heart and the bitterness and hurt I let fester in my life instead of forgiving and letting go. So I have really been convicted about just letting go and giving it to Him. Not to say I have fully succeeded in doing so, hence I am still being convicted and learning what it means to really forgive, and its a lot harder than I thought it would be.
2. Trusting God's Will. God's Will is something I have really been thinking about lately, what is it, and how do we surrender to it and stop worrying/fretting/being concerned. I realized I justify worrying by saying "I am concerned about..." so I have been trying to address that and give things to Him every time I get "concerned" and trust His Will. I have been thinking about what that means, to lay down my will, and trust that His Will is best.
A friend of mine is in the marines and he said that in the marines training they train you in something and then put you in a high stress situation to test how well you learned.
God did that very thing with me. He taught me and spoke to me about Trusting Him no matter what.
Then He brought the high stress situation. I would love to say I passed that test and did well, but I struggled a lot, and I worried a ton, and I came out of it seeing that there's more to trusting Him than just knowing the truth. Understanding God is in control and knowing that you need to trust His Will isn't the same as the action of trusting. In my mind it seemed easier to do so than it actually was in that high stress situation.
Anyways all that to say I have been learning to lay down my will and trust God in ALL things, because His plan REALLY IS BEST, and He is Faithful always!
So some verses He has been repeatedly bringing to my mind and speaking to me through
Matthew 26:39
John 16:33
2 Corinthians 5:7
Ephesians 5:2
1 Peter 4:8
Ephesians 4:32
Colossians 2:14
Psalm 66:12
ROMANS 8:26-27
Isaiah 26:3
2 Timothy 1:12
Isaiah 43:2 "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you."
-"So let the waters rise, if you want them to, I will follow You, I will follow You."- seabird
God bless!
