So, I graduate in about 3 weeks from college. And as those who have graduated before know all too well, the first question people ask you when they talk to you is "so what are you going to do after you graduate?" or a common variation of that.
My current answer goes something like "I have no idea! :D my future is a great big blob, and I am just waiting for God to throw something into my lap!"
Most days, I am pretty ok with that. There are the occasional days where I get impatient and wish I knew what God has in store, but for now, I am ok with not knowing, I am trying to think of it as just adding to the mystery of the adventure.
I confess I have tried to make plans, because that is very much how my type A personality like to do things, I was considering doing like a 2 month medical mission trip in October, which btw I still might do, but after searching the web for about a month, I just hadn't found anything that made me like SUPER EXCITED and want to sign up right away. For whatever reason, nothing seemed like it was the right fit. I have tons of connections through people for missions in Haiti and Honduras, and though the opportunities all sound amazing, I haven't felt God's leading in any one direction as of yet. So for the moment, I have stopped my search and said "Ok, God, if this is what You want, show me in Your time."
So in the meantime, I went ahead and applied at a few local jobs. I still have a few more I want to apply for but I figured, why not apply and see what happens? If God wants me to get a job, He will open that door, and then if He wants me to go overseas, He will work that out and open that door. And if neither of those things is what He has planned, He will show me what He has in mind. So I am trying to live by one of my life mottos by Oswald Chambers, "Trust God and do the next thing" and I am just waiting for God to show me what He has for me next. For now, He has asked me to be faithful these last three weeks as I finish school. I am backing working at Meijer for who knows how long, and I am also working at the assisted living PRN still.
So my plan as of right now is to do the tasks God has put in front of me, to finish school, to make some money, and to trust in His faithfulness.
I know this is not the first time I felt like my future was uncertain, and it won't be the last, and God has always been faithful. The hardest part for me is the waiting. Patience is definitely one of my weakest character points. I like to rush ahead and have everything planned out. And God has been reminding me that no matter how much I may have delusioned myself into believing otherwise, I AM NOT IN CONTROL, He is, He has been, and He always will be, and I can trust Him. It is very hard for me to take my wandering thoughts about the future captive, to stop trying to plan and control and to just wait.
So all of this to say one simple thing: God is faithful. Even though I don't know what He is going to do, I know that He has got this, that He has a plan, and that He will show me what to do in His perfect timing.
In other news, I have been reading in Ezekiel, and today I read Ezekiel 16 and it pretty much blew my mind, so you should check it out, its an amazing chapter that is just powerful. It is such a picture of God's love for Israel and it made me think of how we often act as Christians, how we can play the harlot, and how God desires all of us. I have been reading the book Captivating (I started it like a year ago and just now picked it back up again) and have really been struck by how as a female that longing -to be known and adored- is a characteristic of God, and that He longs for us to desire to know Him. Anyways, just some awesome things God has been talking to me about. :)
May He speak to you today in a powerful way about who He is!
